Pernah merasa diri kesepian, gak berguna ahhh pokoknya menjadi orang yang menyedihkan sedunia deh. Honestly gue sedang merasakan saat ini, dunia yang gue anggap tempat menyenangkan sedunia dengan orang - orang menyenangkan berubah semua menjadi dunia yang menyedihkan dan orang - orang yang mengecewakan.
Gue merasa kemampuan gue mengalami kemunduran, semua yang gue kerjakan selalu merasa salah. Setiap hasil yang dengan gampangnya bisa gue raih dulu, sekarang kayaknya sulit banget gue capai, gue tau ada ungkapan 'Roda kehidupan berputar, kadang di bawah kadang di atas' dan gue mencoba selalu positif thinking yang sekarang gue alami hanya sementara karena roda kehidupan berputar dan pasti roda kehidupan gue akan naik ke atas.
Dan tanpa banyak bicara gue menemukan lagi yang sesuai banget dengan suasana hati gue, lagu nya Katy Perry, lagu ini merupakan penyemangat di saat gue merasa semua yang gue lakukan menjadi gak berguna.
Dan jujur semuanya yang gue alami saat ini sangat membuat gue menjadi stress dan membuat gue menjadi orang yang sangat susah untuk bersosialisasi (I miss my crazy and confident Amel)
Doakan semoga gue cepat sembuh dari penyakit kejiwaan ini .. amin
Berikut penggalan lyric Fireworks - Katy Perry. Semoga yang sedang mengalami hal yang sama kayak gue alami bisa mendapatkan pencerahan. Aminnn
Do you ever feel like a plastic bag
Drifting throught the wind
Wanting to start again
Do you ever feel, feel so paper thin
Like a house of cards
One blow from caving in
Do you ever feel already buried deep
Six feet under scream
But no one seems to hear a thing
Do you know that there's still a chance for you
Cause there's a spark in you
You just gotta ignite the light
And let it shine
Just own the night
Like the Fourth of July
Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what you're worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y
Baby you're a firework
Come on let your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gunna leave 'em fallin' down-own-own
You don't have to feel like a waste of space
You're original, cannot be replaced
If you only knew what the future holds
After a hurricane comes a rainbow
Maybe you're reason why all the doors are closed
So you could open one that leads you to the perfect road
Like a lightning bolt, your heart will blow
And when it's time, you'll know
You just gotta ignite the light
And let it shine
Just own the night
Like the Fourth of July
Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what you're worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y
Baby you're a firework
Come on let your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gonna leave 'em all in awe-awe-awe"
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
It's always been inside of you, you, you
And now it's time to let it through
Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what your worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y
Baby you're a firework
Come on slet your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gonna leave 'em all in awe-awe-awe
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
Love,
AC
